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..i cnt even do the things that i like..i cnt decide for myself...i cnt choose what school and course that i like in collge.....haay....
..wag nyo nlng ako pag-aralin
..dto kmi skul..wahaha..saturday sa skul.buti nlng nagnnet lng kmi..di boring!! saya libreng internet!! yohoo!!
wala kming mgwa..
c ms.connie may bad joke knina...may hndi dw ggraduate smin...sbi nya...sbi ko cryoso ba xa.oo daw...tpos hndi nman pla!! epal tlga un!!
antok nko..wla nko mgwang matino dto..
saya ng araw na toh..we had our recolection.... saya ng reco kht saglit lng..tulad ng reco nmin ng first yr,,bwal kmi mag-usap pg break and wla kming watches..buhuhu..but ok lng..it was worth it.. iyakan kmi nung huli na kc sbi pa nga ni sr.."bilang na mga araw nyo dito sa st.scho" ..yeah.ggraduate na kmi..ayoko pa..mamimiss ko clasmates ko...teachers...ung buong skul..buhuhu...ibang-iba na toh pg college.. nrealize ko lng tlga kung gano ko kamahal mga clasmates ko...as in..sobra...tpos they look up to me pa...hanep..tnx ah.. ..if given a chance,gusto ko clasmates ko prin silang lhat pg college..tpos dpat may boys na..wahahahwwa o xa...gawa muna ko ng health at entre paper nmin..damn!
i hate myself..wla akong pangarap sa buhay ko..hanggangn ngaun wla prin akong papasukan for college..anu petsa na?!! pucha nmn oh..hndi ko maintindihan kung bkt ba wla akong mapasahan..gngwa ko nman lahat ng makakaya ko...haayy....suko na ko!! uuwi na mama ko..katakot takot na salita nnman mrrinig ko... oo na...kasalanan ko na...sadyang di lng tlga ko mtalino tulad ng iba.. isa pa..kpg mag-eexam ako sa isang skul..ayaw nyo dun...tpos minsan pa gusto ng lolo ko pro ayaw nman ni mama..san ba ko lulugar?? di ko na alam ggwin ko... nsstress nko...mg-eexam ako sa dasma..ayaw nyo..eh sa andun ung science ng la salle eh..masama bgn mgtry na bka pumasa ko dun?! tska.puhleeezz!! ayoko na dto sa south..gusto ko sa north!! ok..excep the dasma.ehehe... gusto ko lumayo sa family ko..bwas anxiety ba.. hayyy..i'm slowly giving up...
..dto ko ngaun sa comp. lab...actually dpat half day lng kmi pro nag whole day kmi..wla lng...dpat may ggwin kmi kso di rin nmin alam kung ano ggwin nmin..ehehe...yon..
yung iba nming clasmates nsa mall...umalis agad,,gala!! whehee
...tapos na exams!!! yahoo!!! wla na iintindihin..meron pa pla...wla pa kong skul for college!! ok,un na aasikasuhin ko!...shet ah..ggraduate ako wla kong skul...golly!!
haroo...exams nmin..hehe..but i'm blogging..yeah! i'm a good student..well, i dnt care..mamaya nko mag-aaral..i just woke up and im not in the mood! anyhoo,,i'm kinda distant to one of my friends right now..wala lng..parang naasar lang ako dun sa gnwa nya ..sinabi nya kay kumag ung pinakaiingat -ingatan at pnakatago-tago kong sikreto..wala na yung plan ko na si kumag ang mkarealize nun..sabi nya(nung friend ko) sabi ko daw kc itxt nya..eh wala nman akong sinabi na yon ang itxt nya eh!! o cge!! wala na!! nasrai na lahat! lahat ng pinagkakatiwalaan ko sinasabi sikreto ko! sabi skin ni ate aprell bka daw kc gusto ako tulungan..eh they're not helping me!! thy're ruining my trust to them,to her. sabi pa nung friend ko kasi daw walang mangyayari smin..eh ano bng gusto kong mangyari?!!? wala nman!!! kung may gusto man akong mangyari, yon ay yong mrealize ni kumag kung ano ba dpat nyang gwin..may gf xa..mahal nya gf nya..mahal nya ko?! the hell?! tapos kpg may nagsabi lang sknya na may gusto ko sknya tska xa mag-iisip?! leche!! hate you!
..i'm taking a break now from my thesis paper..still not done with it! fuckshit! ayoko na!!
...he asked me if i could be his partner for their prom...wel..i dnt know...i dnt have any idea wether to say yes or no...there are still some things that are not okay between us..and it seems that wla kang alam..c'mon man! ano bng problema..kinukuha mo kong partner kc wla kna tlgang makuhang partner! yeah ryt!! last option!...
...gusto ko na mag exams..kht di pko nag-aaral.....
...yoko na sa skul......i'm traumatized..............
..................................................................i'm LOST..*des, i'm lost..*
GLOWING INSIDE by NIKKI GIL
happy, to let you know
i love you so, its true
happy, that i have you
you make me glow
i want as bright as you
chorus:
i'll always thank you
for the glow
i thank you for the joy
thank you
for the love you give to me
i'd always like glowing inside
with your love shining through
thank you for everything you do
i'm glowing inside
because of you
remember, my growing years
they fill with joy
because your there for me
you cast away my fears
you wipe those tears
you give me strength each day
(repeat chorus)
who knows for what tomorrow brings
my glowing win you make me fly
i reachand i touch the sky because of you
i'll sore up high
so i am
(repeat chorus 2x)
..it's 9:36 pm..and i'm sooo sleepy...tamad ko ngaun..dpat ttpusin ko na ela ko ngaun pro sobrang i'm not in the mood to do it..i mean continue eh...arg!!
get this out of me!
i dnt even know what's hapening to me..ilang days na mabigat pkiramdam ko..prang i'm feeling something na very heavy,,prang depresd...but i dnt have any reason to be depresd...
..............................wala nga ba??!!.................................
............ .......... Thank you for standing beside me...for the good times and happy memories...
...arts time today...pro pinagrresearch lng kmi...
grabe kninang physics...this is not a happy day.. may presentation kmi knina ng research paper nmin..tpos...un..daming tanong ni ms.whenn..una good mood xa..sa dami nyang tanong minsan di na nssagot nung nagppresent un questions..pro nagttry sobra ung mga nagppresent na mksagot..tpos bgay na grade ni ms.whenn 1/10..so we like beg na taasan kc kwawa nman clasmates nmin...kc may effort nmn cla masagot..tpos prang galit si ms.whenn..hanggang sa mejo nagkasagutan si lain at ms bout certain stuffs...hanggang sa paulit-ulit na kong nagtatanong kung ano bang ngwa nmin at bkt prang galit xa smin...ano bng kasalanan nmin chuva chenes..tpos sagot nya "galit ako kc ang rude nyo"..hhmm...i wonder??? ineexplain lng nman nmin side nmin...knina pa ung umaga prang galit na agad xa smin..
ang weird kc prang ayaw nila kmi mkagraduate...feeling ko lahat ng teachers gnun na ang tingin smin...na rude kmi..bastos..lahat na...di nman kmi gnon..minsn tlga gusto lng nmin magsalita kc gusto nmin ilabas point nmin,ung side nmin..
yoko na dto...takot na ko sa mga teachers....mananahimik nlng ako bka kc pag may nsabi ako kung ano pa sabihin nila...
i'm hating school..
